The Unexpected Shape

The Blog of Esmé Wang

Esmé Weijun Wang
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How to create your perfect(ly imperfect) morning routine.

How to create your perfect(ly imperfect) morning routine.

As I write this, a bleak terror-creature is clawing at the place between my ribs. There is nothing that I know of that should instigate this anxiety, but it has come to call for the last few weeks, and shows no signs of crawling away. On days like this, when my health—mental or physical—is not […]

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On chronic illness & feeling “lazy.”

On chronic illness & feeling “lazy.”

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Limited energy, (seemingly) endless stops: how I managed my book tour and chronic illness.

Limited energy, (seemingly) endless stops: how I managed my book tour and chronic illness.

Listen to me read the below here:   While I was shuffling Tarot cards this morning for my daily read, a “jumper” escaped from the pack and sailed across my bed; when I retrieved the card, a grinning skull stared up at me: Death. I know better than to take such cards literally—the Death card […]

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Simple Meals: The Baked Potato

Simple Meals: The Baked Potato

Simple Meals A column that shares the story of a very simple meal—something that can offer nourishment without too much effort. These simple meals are good any time, but are especially helpful during difficult times. Listen to me read the below here: Esmé In my early 20s, my roommate surprised me by parading into our room with […]

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On disability & confidence.

On disability & confidence.

Listen to me read the below here:   I began to think about the relationship between disability and confidence while visiting New York last fall for a friend’s wedding. I’d realized on the flight from San Francisco that who I am now bears little resemblance to who I was before I got sick. This is […]

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A simple list that can change how you think about your day. (& no, it’s not a gratitude list.)

A simple list that can change how you think about your day. (& no, it’s not a gratitude list.)

This Journal post is modeled from a lesson taken from Rawness of Remembering: Restorative Journaling Through Difficult Times. For more information about Rawness of Remembering, please check out http://www.esmewang.com/rawness today. In general, the ever-popular gratitude list has tended to not work for me. If listing the things that you’re grateful for on a daily basis […]

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On rewriting your narrative & telling a different story.

On rewriting your narrative & telling a different story.

Listen to me read the below here:   I discovered the power of rewriting my own story while staying alone in the woods, in a little cottage, with all of the freedom of my days available to me to work on a book. In that solitude, I found myself struggling with depersonalization and derealization—essentially, psychiatric […]

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On barrenness & lying fallow.

On barrenness & lying fallow.

Listen to me read the below here:   Queen of Wands, Empress reversed. So said the cards when I blearily examined them. (I am, suffice it to say, a nascent Tarot reader.) The Queen of Wands is a Court card that I associate with who I can be–or perhaps it’s more accurate to say that […]

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2016: Alive

2016: Alive

Had my 2016 been poisoned? I could see it that way. Listen to me read the below here:   I was ready to enter 2016. I’d been joking on Twitter, with a razor edge to my digital voice, about how 2015 really just needed to be put to bed. Or perhaps put to sleep, when […]

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