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Redefining Ambition: Intention Setting for 2022

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During this seminar, we will take a look at reflecting on 2021 and setting intentions for 2022…

By using the Reflect & Grow workbook (included with registration if you haven’t already purchased it) as well as what it means to set goals and intentions when living with limitations, such as chronic illness, disability, and caregiving responsibilities.

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“The level of professionalism combined with sincerity immediately put me at ease. As someone just starting out, you don’t know what you don’t know and your workshop answered questions I didn’t know to ask. I also deeply appreciated the attention to accessibility for various learning styles and sensory needs. Having a live transcript in addition traditional audio/video made it easier to relax, absorb the material, and just enjoy the discussion.”

Jen M.

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“The level of professionalism combined with sincerity immediately put me at ease. As someone just starting out, you don’t know what you don’t know and your workshop answered questions I didn’t know to ask. I also deeply appreciated the attention to accessibility for various learning styles and sensory needs. Having a live transcript in addition traditional audio/video made it easier to relax, absorb the material, and just enjoy the discussion.”

Jen M.

3 live workshops (+ a limited time only bonus!)

The Foundations of Memoir Bundle

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A special bundle of 3 writing workshops that will give you the tools, teachings and support to set your dream of becoming a full-time writer into motion. Purchase it for yourself, or gift it to someone who is hoping to tell their story.

Each workshop addresses a different foundational phase of writing memoir and personal nonfiction: Planning, Prewriting, and Writing, with the goal of getting you prepared and grounded into the actual process of writing your essay and/or book.

The best part about this bundle of workshops? Everything is being taught by someone who has been there – really been there. Someone who has spent a lifetime figuring out what works and what doesn’t so that now, you don’t have to.

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“I never understood why people would call me “brave” as a writer. I was never afraid to tell my truth, but it was at the cost of not caring how harsh it comes off. If I’m gonna be alone, it might as well be with my truth. However it was Esme that taught me the true part of being brave as a writer, as it's about allowing yourself to trust readers are willing to understand.”

Long Vo

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“I never understood why people would call me “brave” as a writer. I was never afraid to tell my truth, but it was at the cost of not caring how harsh it comes off. If I’m gonna be alone, it might as well be with my truth. However it was Esme that taught me the true part of being brave as a writer, as it's about allowing yourself to trust readers are willing to understand.”

Long Vo

a 24-paged digital workbook for reflection and growth in 2022

The Unexpected Shape™ Reflect & Grow 2022 Workbook

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Wrap up your year with this beautiful 24-paged workbook, which encourages you to reflect on the year gone by and to look ahead at your 2022, focusing in particular on social justice and your dream writing life. With plenty of space to wonder, doodle, ponder joy, and make lists, The Unexpected Shape™ Reflect & Grow 2022 Workbook is an excellent tool for ending 2021 and marching forward into 2022.

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"Thanks for the year end workbook. It was just the right intensity and length. (Price point perfect too!) I'm really excited for 2022 and for writing!”

Suzi W.

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"Thanks for the year end workbook. It was just the right intensity and length. (Price point perfect too!) I'm really excited for 2022 and for writing!”

Suzi W.

Guided ECourse

Rawness of Remembering

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Use the power of restorative journaling to survive, heal, and grow through difficult times.

This is a self-paced online course about restorative journaling through difficult times, built by someone who’s been in the trenches.

At the end of the restorative journaling process, you’ll realize that you’ve also made an investment in revealing your voice. To realize your own bravery and strength as you live through whatever difficult time you may be experiencing. To have a physical record to look back on and think, Yes. I did that. I went through that. I’m still here.

And because difficult times aren’t limited to one-per-person (unfortunately!), you’ll have lifetime access to the course material.

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"I'm only 8 lessons in, but lately I *crave* the journaling course: the time to be with myself and my journal, your prompts and structure. I’ve journaled before but never in such a deliberate and therapeutic way. I feel like I am reaching a hand out to myself when I journal now. This course made me aware of my internal power: the capacity to be loving towards myself even in difficult moments. I have dreaded time with myself for the last few months because I'm so afraid I'll become very depressed and self-destructive. Your course has helped me realize that I can be an ally and advocate to myself throughout my healing."

M.R.

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"I'm only 8 lessons in, but lately I *crave* the journaling course: the time to be with myself and my journal, your prompts and structure. I’ve journaled before but never in such a deliberate and therapeutic way. I feel like I am reaching a hand out to myself when I journal now. This course made me aware of my internal power: the capacity to be loving towards myself even in difficult moments. I have dreaded time with myself for the last few months because I'm so afraid I'll become very depressed and self-destructive. Your course has helped me realize that I can be an ally and advocate to myself throughout my healing."

M.R.

Redeeming (Gift Certificates, Rawness of Remembering Code)

Did Someone Give You A Gift? Look Here!

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If you received a Rawness of Remembering gift code, or if you purchased Rawness of Remembering and can’t figure out how to get back into the site, please head over to this website to use your login information. If you’re still confused, please email my Executive Assistant, Chloe, at chloe@esmewang.com with as much information for her as possible.

If you received a gift certificate and would like to redeem it for an upcoming workshop, make sure that the workshop is actually happening. How will you know that? Subscribe to With Love & Squalor for updates. Then, when you’d like to sign up for the appropriate workshop, please email my Executive Assistant, Chloe, at chloe@esmewang.com with as much information for her as possible.

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Free E-Book

Productivity Journaling with Limitations

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Love analogue planning, or wish to figure out how to start? Are you an ambitious person living with limitations, such as chronic illness, mental health challenges, or caretaking responsibilities? This elegant workbook will show you the methods I use to do my morning planning and journaling. & once you’ve received Productivity Journaling with Limitations: The Morning Ritual, you’ll also receive With Love & Squalor—monthly love letters from me about life, resilience, and making the most of our days.

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"The [workbook] is amazing, and I genuinely mean that. I think writing down what I’ve done each day and accomplished will help with my mood massively. I also love the 1-3-6 thing; I had never heard of that before, but will definitely be following it from now on.”

Kayleigh

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"The [workbook] is amazing, and I genuinely mean that. I think writing down what I’ve done each day and accomplished will help with my mood massively. I also love the 1-3-6 thing; I had never heard of that before, but will definitely be following it from now on.”

Kayleigh

Essay Collection

The Collected Schizophrenias

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A New York Times bestseller. Powerful, affecting essays on mental illness, winner of the Graywolf Press Nonfiction Prize and a Whiting Award.


An intimate, moving book written with the immediacy and directness of one who still struggles with the effects of mental and chronic illness, The Collected Schizophrenias cuts right to the core. Schizophrenia is not a single unifying diagnosis, and Esmé Weijun Wang writes not just to her fellow members of the “collected schizophrenias” but to those who wish to understand it as well. Opening with the journey toward her diagnosis of schizoaffective disorder, Wang discusses the medical community’s own disagreement about labels and procedures for diagnosing those with mental illness, and then follows an arc that examines the manifestations of schizophrenia in her life. In essays that range from using fashion to present as high-functioning to the depths of a rare form of psychosis, and from the failures of the higher education system and the dangers of institutionalization to the complexity of compounding factors such as PTSD and Lyme disease, Wang’s analytical eye, honed as a former lab researcher at Stanford, allows her to balance research with personal narrative. An essay collection of undeniable power, The Collected Schizophrenias dispels misconceptions and provides insight into a condition long misunderstood.

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“[The Collected Schizophrenias is] resoundingly intelligent, often unexpectedly funny, questioning, fearless and peerless, as Wang makes for brilliant company on 13 difficult walks through largely uncharted territory.”

Los Angeles Times

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“[The Collected Schizophrenias is] resoundingly intelligent, often unexpectedly funny, questioning, fearless and peerless, as Wang makes for brilliant company on 13 difficult walks through largely uncharted territory.”

Los Angeles Times

A Novel

The Border of Paradise

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An epic tale of one iconoclastic family’s inheritance of madness in Brooklyn, Taiwan, and Northern California.


In booming postwar Brooklyn, the Nowak Piano Company is an American success story. There is just one problem: the Nowak’s only son, David. A handsome kid and shy like his mother, David struggles with neuroses. If not for his only friend, Marianne, David’s life would be intolerable. When David inherits the piano company at just 18 and Marianne breaks things off, David sells the company and travels around the world. In Taiwan, his life changes when he meets the daughter of a local madame—beautiful, sharp-tongued Daisy. Returning to the United States, the couple (and newborn son) buy an isolated country house in Northern California’s Polk Valley. As David’s mental health deteriorates, he has a brief affair with Marianne, producing a daughter. When Marianne appears at their doorstep, the couple’s fateful decision to take the child as their own determines a tragic course of events for the entire family. Told from multiple perspectives, The Border of Paradise culminates in heartrending fashion, as the young heirs to the Nowak fortune must confront their past and the tragic reality of their future.

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"The Border of Paradise is shaped by darkness and the kind of delicious story that makes for missed train stops and bedtimes, keeping a reader up late for just one more page of dynamic character-bouncing perspective… It is the author’s stunning introduction to the literary world."

New York Times

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"The Border of Paradise is shaped by darkness and the kind of delicious story that makes for missed train stops and bedtimes, keeping a reader up late for just one more page of dynamic character-bouncing perspective… It is the author’s stunning introduction to the literary world."

New York Times

A month of encouraging notes in December 2021

Encouragement Notes 2021

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Years ago, I created the inaugural Encouragement Notes. I was going through a weird time in my life; I knew that I could use encouragment, and I thought that other people might be able to use some encouraging words in their inbox.

After that first series of Encouragement Notes, I curated the best of that month of notes and left the Notes available on my website so that people could sign up for them any time. Those notes have reached thousands of people in the last few years.

I think it’s time for another series of Encouragement Notes. You know: the 2021 edition.

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"I love the simplicity and the honesty the Encouragement Notes provide… The Encouragement Notes isn't another cluster in your email; it's that small lift every single person going through life needs to read and say and adhere to."

Jade Ivy Bridges

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"I love the simplicity and the honesty the Encouragement Notes provide… The Encouragement Notes isn't another cluster in your email; it's that small lift every single person going through life needs to read and say and adhere to."

Jade Ivy Bridges

Free Guided E-Course

Encouragement Notes

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In late November 2015, after a year of stress and illness, I decided to create a free resource called the Encouragement Notes. The Encouragement Notes would comprise encouraging emails, sent from Monday through Friday, every day in December—a month that’s often considered to be celebratory and exciting, but is also hugely stressful for many. The Encouragement Notes also came with a community known as Keep Going, You’re Doing Great, a private Facebook group of wonderful men, women, and gender non-conforming individuals who supported one another and built a sense of camaraderie in the dimmer months (even calling themselves Encouragers at one point). In total, over 300 people signed up for the inaugural version of the Encouragement Notes. The Notes and the group are now available to everyone—and still for free.

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"The best part of the Encouragement Notes was that I knew that every morning, I had something to look forward to in my inbox. Mornings are very difficult for me health-wise these days, and it was incredible to be able to go to bed knowing I had a reason to get up the next day and keep going. I will sorely miss the solace I found everyday in these little notes, which I would always read a few minutes upon waking up, and reread throughout the day for a little extra boost. Thank you, Esmé, for this thoughtful initiative!"

Lili

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"The best part of the Encouragement Notes was that I knew that every morning, I had something to look forward to in my inbox. Mornings are very difficult for me health-wise these days, and it was incredible to be able to go to bed knowing I had a reason to get up the next day and keep going. I will sorely miss the solace I found everyday in these little notes, which I would always read a few minutes upon waking up, and reread throughout the day for a little extra boost. Thank you, Esmé, for this thoughtful initiative!"

Lili

My Bookshop

Recommended Reads

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My Bookshop library is home to some of my most treasured and recommended reads.

These are the books that I turn to, find comfort in, and continue to enjoy. Within this collection, you’ll find books written by authors such as Toni Morrison, T Kira Madden, Ilya Kaminsky, and Leo Tolstoy (to name a few), and when you purchase through my Bookshop page, you are directly supporting independent bookstores, as well as myself. I also encourage sure you check back in from time to time, as it is inevitable that my collection of recommended reads will grow.

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Resources

I have affiliated myself with a small number of products, programs, and e-books, all of which I found to be excellent products. I’m sharing them with you here, in case you should find them useful to you as well.

Full disclosure: should you purchase any of these products with the given links, I will receive a commission—but again, I stand behind everything listed here, and spent my own money on them before becoming an affiliate.

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Spirited

Created by Rachel MacDonald and Tara Bliss, this spiritually-minded e-book is an excellent primer to the “woo-woo” side of life. Should you be interested in manifestation, meditation, and a combination of introspection and trusting the Universe, this gorgeously designed volume is for you. I purchased it during the worst year of my life, printed it out and bound it, and ended up scribbling notes all over the worksheets and chapters while sitting in a papasan in a tiny old house in New Orleans.

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Qwerkywriter keyboard

I’m obsessed with my Qwerkywriter keyboard. At this point, I’ve tried a number of typewriter keyboards; this is the best one, and it’s also motivated me to write more just because I’m obsessed with the way it feels. The clicking of the keys has a mechanical sensation that is absolutely delicious, and even the texture of the keys is slightly rough in a way that I love.

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